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The HeroThe world is a confusing place
And I'm climbing, but it keeps getting steeper
And I try so hard to keep going
But I just keep sinking in deeper.
I'm trying so hard to help you
Changing how I act and behave
But maybe its not you who needs helping
Maybe I'm the one who needs to be saved.
I'm suppose to be taking a step forward
But I've been taking two steps back
And I'm reversing what I've worked for
And my mind is beginning to crack
And that pain inside of my chest
And that pain inside of my head
I'm surprised I've made it this far
And I haven't just completely dropped dead
I'm trying to be your Wonder Woman
And fix everything that is wrong
But maybe the one who needs fixing
Is the one singing this monotonous song
I know that I'm vain and selfish
I want your attention and praise
And there's really nothing wrong with you
Just me and my self-centered craze
I'm trying to be something more
Something worth more than a price
And its a bad bet that I've made
Gambling my life on a dice
Rest In Peace EthanThis is dedicated to a boy named Ethan.
4 or 5 years ago, our house phone rang, and I picked it up. It was my grandma. She said,
"Hello, its Grandma. Amy? Where is your mom."
I said, "She's taking a shower."
After a brief moment of silence she said,
"Tell her Ami is dead."
Then she hung up the phone.
I was only 9 or 10 and I had to tell my mom that her sister-in-law was dead. My mom cried.
When I went to visit my Aunt Ami's grave this year in May,
I took pictures of the flowers and the candles that were scattered around the various graves of the dearly departed.
As I was taking a picture of some roses, my little brother tugged on my arm, and asked me,
"Why are there cupcakes over there? A bunch of ants are eating them."
I went to where he was talking about, and down the row of markers, there was a grave with two cupcakes infront of it. They were vanilla cupcakes with light yellow and pink frosting. They looked pretty old like they'd been there a week or so, and ants were lined up takin
Summer Boy I met a boy with long, dark waves of hair,
That cascaded and broke on his shoulders,
And eyes blacker than the deepest starry night.
His skin was like golden sand,
As soft as sapphire silk,
With a disposition as bright,
As fireflies in a warm sunset field,
With a voice as sweet as warm honey,
And as pleasant as the hum of lazy bees.
He warmed my Spirit, and thawed my soul,
With words as lovely as freshly bloomed flowers,
Whispered delicately into my ear of ice.
Words that had gone unheard for centuries and eons,
In the chilled, desolate tundra that was my mind.
He fought his way through the flurries of freezing rejection that battered him,
Broke the seemingly indestructible walls of ice,
That had hidden me so well through the years,
Shattered the doors of my iceberg heart with a single glance and word,
And, with soft, cautious gestures, brought me out of the cave I made out of loneliness.
I had lived in my
What Happened?We were once us but now me
You say you care but really you don't
I rather if you don't so that you can drift away like a memory
Now I am alone, walking alone in this cold world
Just move on, there are others that make me happy
So in a way I thank you for leaving
Thanks for making happier but it the days like this that I stop and want to go back
But how to go back when there is nothing there
You left and move on like nothing
Why should I care?
"If I lose you, I don't know what I would do"
I remember I said that and turns out to be true
You walk away, that's all she wrote
Don't just say goodbye when I never wanted to
Too bad that you felt miserable
Its sad one can be happy and the other can be feel not same
Was it the reason why we got into this relationship just to forget who we were chasing before?
Or wasn't that something needed to change with our lives?
I don't know, it happened within a blink of an eye
I didn't try hard enough or you gave up too easily?
Can't change anything that ha
Playing GodPlaying God
Hate isn't healing
Too often it's killing
And feelings aren't spared in the process of stealing a life
Stealing a father, a mother, a sister, a brother, a daughter, a son, a husband, or wife
Or maybe just stealing a friend
In the end what you take is a person connected
By strands of affection protected by nothing
But pure unconditional love
And when hearts are infected
And words are inflected
With currents of loathing
The booming voice of some being above
It's these people you hurt
Not just the ones in the dirt
Who feel the effect
Of your hate indirectly
Connecting when push comes to shove
You call me a monster
A monster that loves?
Seems kind of silly to me
Practice your preaching
Or risk only reaching
An audience too blind to see
Tolerance doesn't imply your support
It only requires you do not cavort
As the only opinion worth holding
And when your values conflict
With more sensible edict
Forego the sociopolitical molding
You see people are people
The sacrifice.the ocean sings
the bluebirds fly
the shells will scream
their silent cry
when divers come
to get the pearl
you raised so long
for a little girl
five years you were working
for the final move
get it ready in time!
For the final approve
he CRACKS you
he SMACKS you
he HACKS you
and you were just shielding
your little pearl
and while you are sighing
the diver is smiling
and while you are dying
the princess is crying
'cause you had to die
for the princess' delight.
I have never felt this way before,
Completely and utterly empty,
I feel like my heart has been torn to shreds,
Leaving nothing but broken shards just like a hurricane does,
This pain, is a pain that has been torturing me,
It has been taking over my body for the past few days,
Slowly stripping the life out of me,
Leaving nothing but a dark empty shell,
I never imagined it could hurt so much to lose you,
Especially since I barely even knew you,
You were a role model for everyone,
And it rips me apart to know you're gone,
I know you're in a better place,
But something inside me still wishes you were here,
It killed me when I saw a dead body for the first time,
And it just had to be yours,
Tears are continuously pouring down like rain,
Staining my face with sorrow,
I would repeatedly mechanically wipe them away,
But when will my gloomy days come to an end?
I just wish I could have seen you once more time,
Seen that beautiful and welcoming smile of yours,
Listen to your wonderful and c
Memory of YouYou slowly walked away,
left me solemn in the rain.
I guess it shouldn't be a surprise.
You saw the reaction on my face
when you gave the last embrace.
There began the story of our demise.
And now there's nothing but...
just a cold tear tear, just a hard breath.
A mere moment collapses, nothing is left.
You said your goodbyes, there was nothing I could do.
So I quietly drift away trapped in the memory of you.
Several days pass by
and I think I'm losing time.
Where did my concentration go?
So much anxiety over you,
don't know how I will get through.
But it will be alright, I know.
Still you left me with...
just a cold tear, just a hard breath.
A mere moment collapsed and nothing was left.
You said your goodbyes, there was nothing I could do.
So I quietly drifted away trapped in the memory of you.
It's been a year since then
and the mending has kicked in.
No more struggling against the pain.
Since I gave up on the fight
and surrendered to the light,
only a peace of mind remains.
UnderstandExcuse me, I'm sorry to impose
Won't you both keep on your clothes
I have something that I have to say
You might laugh or you might get upset
Are you listening to me yet?
I can't just simply walk away
Boy, I lost my trust in you
Girl, if you knew what I knew
You'd see he's not the person he appears
But you take his word over mine
I just hope you'll leave in time
Before you see that he's your biggest fears
Sometimes I even wonder if
The possibility of this
So called 'karma' even exists
How come I'm here with open arms
An open heart in risk of harm
Yet he's the one with someone else to kiss?
Boy, you don't deserve her
Girl, you deserve better
But still I have to see you hand in hand
Soon you'll see just what he is
And maybe when it comes to this
Maybe then you'll finally understand
Excuse me, I don't mean to offend
But I can't smile and pretend
That you'll be perfect for each other
He'll tell you that you're the only one
Blink your eyes and he'll be gone
Off to find a perfect lover
TryI try and try again
But nothing seems to work
She just keeps ignoring me
She keeps thinking it is dead
I keep on trying to tell her it's not
But why won't you listen
Listening is key
I have been listening to you this whole time
But not once I turned away and said
"I wish it could have been different"
No, that's not how I thought
How it felt
Being through so much with you that I can't let go just like that
No, I am not saying I am living in the past
I am saying I want you to still be there
I want you not to give in to your own doubt
Believe me, please
My life is better with you not without
Hanging on a thread and I grab it with all my might for that it would be sew on and not drift away
No sarcastic tone, no laughing matter
All in seriousness, serious about you
Serious that this still can work out
All relationships go though turmoil, crap, mess ups and all
But it takes a real one get through it
It wouldn't be an easy road but a doable road
I know you hate the feeling of making this deci
Japanese Love SongI can no longer fall in love
Anymore, in this way.
It is too difficult to tame
To understand, you
Reminded of a evening summer breeze
Warm and fleeting
We were meant to stay the same
Through all the seasons
Even when the snow covered the ground
And loneliness burned my cheeks with shame
Because understanding was different from saying,
"I am no longer able to fall in love, with you, this way."
My Fragile HeartMy fragile little heart
Little fluttering dove in my chest
Delicate creature thou art
Lay thine worries to rest
No longer shall thee fret
of the peril of splitting in two
No longer shall love hold debt
Nor ever 'gain burden you
I nay dare love another
So as to not tempt Fate
Nor, my brittle heart smother
This I vow... this I state
My shivering little heart
Thou hath shattered many a times
So now my choice be smart
And safe be my fluttering chimes
Be gone Cherubs and Cupid
Thy arrows' poison be tart
Strike me not as dumb-muted
Strike not my fragile heart
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